I think I
have it. That seasonal depression
thing. And I don’t think my disorder has
anything to do with lack of sunlight. In
fact, I know exactly from where mine stems---Christmas of 1984.
His
career profoundly influenced me, my wife, and about 3000 other veterinarians
between the ages of 45 and 85, many of whom you readers have known. Sometimes even now, I get a certain feeling
he is still teaching me things.
Five
weeks before Christmas, my dad was diagnosed with lymphoma. A good part of the next month was spent in
the hospital, but he was doing well enough to come home for Christmas.
The
gift I got for him still sits on my desk.
A little knick-knack plaque with a picture of an English Bulldog puppy
and a kitten, it reads “Together we can lick anything.” We couldn’t lick cancer, though. Two days later he was back in the hospital,
and thirty days after that, he died.
That Christmas day is the last day I remember him really being my dad.
Obviously,
his loss left a huge hole in me.
Unfortunately, it also left a hole in Christmas for me, as well.
I
don’t want anyone to think that I’m all “Bah humbug!” about Christmas, because
I’m not. I’m just a little blue that the
last 24 Christmases haven’t been as enjoyable as the first 24. I do understand the “reason for the season”
and I greatly appreciate the generosity of our clients.
Every
Christmas our office is overwhelmed with cookies, pies, pastries of all sorts,
and a plethora of fruit baskets. So much
so that it is impossible for 11 of us to eat everything. My wife suggested we save something for Jerry
and his family.
Jerry
Luersman, one of my large animal clients, raises Holstein
steers. He comes from a fine Delphos
family, has a nice family of his own, and is one of the most pleasant people
you could ever meet.
In
November, Jerry was severely injured in a wood cutting accident. He was out in the woods with his father,
brother, nephew, and two sons. The
circular saw they were using broke, sending pieces into several of them, but
mostly into Jerry. Thanks to heroic
action by his father and a life-saving helicopter ride, Jerry is going to be
okay. But, he does have some
recuperating ahead of him---not the sort of thing any family should have to go
through during the holidays.
Later
that day, a brand new, unopened fruit basket magically, I think, appeared on my
desk. I found an old Christmas card and
without much thought wrote, “Someday, this will be your best Christmas ever!”
After
I wrote that phrase, it struck me how relevant it was to my own situation. Christmas 1984 wasn’t my worst Christmas, it
was my best. I just didn’t know it. Although not the happiest, it certainly was
the most meaningful, and of all my Christmases, the one I remember like no
other.
During
those few weeks before Christmas, my dad and I spent a great deal of time
together. We talked about his early days
of private practice in Preble
County , and of his time
in the Navy during World War II. A
homesick tale of listening to the Ohio
State -Michigan game on a radio far away in the
South Pacific was heartbreaking. He also
told me the intricacies of university politics and about how they overthrew the
veterinary college dean. These stories
were going to be in a book he never got to write: “Don’t Rock the Boat.” He was, truth be told, a bit of a
boat-rocker.
All
in all, those were some of the most memorable days of our life together. The saddest part is that there just weren’t
enough of them.
I
hope all of you had a Merry Christmas.
For some, undoubtedly this will be your best Christmas ever, too. Happy New Year, Jerry!
Author: Dr. John Jones
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